Happiness

What a time it has been since I have written my last blog. The resit of my internship cost me so much energy and focus that I couldn’t find the time to sit and write in peace. I had a goal and set my complete focus on it, and fortunately with success. During this time I felt so blessed with the phenomenal weather of the past weeks. It gave me and millions of others a great time and energy boost, sometimes much needed. After my first internship eastern came and brought some much appreciated free days. The sun was at his best and family and friends made it a great time. Then I shifted to a new internship at a secondary school. The first week went very fast and had some rare moments in it. One of them was a stunt of the pupils that graduate this year, as they turned the school upside down into a major disco and preformed a very Dutch bollonese, trying to break the national record (without succeeding). It was a good way of ending the season both for them as for all the others that have a one week vacation.

The last week before going to Sweden is always a strange week for me, as my soul burns with excitement but my spirit leads in a controlled mode of waiting. This mixture causes my focuses to be a little out of balance sometime, resulting in the lack of power and motivation to perform at the best of my abilities. I am just grateful that God leads and forms me through all these things, being patient with me as I walk the way. He always gives me so much peace through which me spirit keeps in control over feelings, reminding me that His burden is easy, His yoke light and He will never give too much to carry and supplies all that is needed to walk the way. 

Today I read these beautiful words in 1 Kings about the splendor and wisdom of Solomon.

 ¹ Now when the queen of Sheba heard of the fame of Solomon concerning the name of the LORD, she came to test him with hard questions. ² She came to Jerusalem with a very great retinue, with camels that bore spices, very much gold, and precious stones; and when she came to Solomon, she spoke with him about all that was in her heart. ³ So Solomon answered all her questions; there was nothing so difficult for the king that he could not explain it to her. ⁴ And when the queen of Sheba had seen all the wisdom of Solomon, the house that he had built, ⁵ the food on his table, the seating of his servants, the service of his waiters and their apparel, his cupbearers, and his entryway by which he went up to the house of the LORD, there was no more spirit in her. ⁶ Then she said to the king: “It was a true report which I heard in my own land about your words and your wisdom. ⁷ However I did not believe the words until I came and saw with my own eyes; and indeed the half was not told me. Your wisdom and prosperity exceed the fame of which I heard. ⁸ Happy are your men and happy are these your servants, who stand continually before you and hear your wisdom! ⁹ Blessed be the LORD your God, who delighted in you, setting you on the throne of Israel! Because the LORD has loved Israel forever, therefore He made you king, to do justice and righteousness.”

I find this an amazing story! And how amazing it must have been! It shows again the exceeding blessings that Wisdom brings. But in the story one sentence really captured my attention, as queen Sheba talks about the men and servants of Solomon: ⁸ Happy are your men and happy are these your servants, who stand continually before you and hear your wisdom!

It took me, and captured my heart as I thought about the joy we have as servants of Christ Jesus, being given the right to stand before Him and hear His wisdom. Truly this is a thing to be happy about! And there is much more to say about this, but I just wanted to share the thought, and hopefully it gives you the same excitement and joy as it gave me!

Reason

I have been struggling for a few weeks with my blog and my writings. I just kept asking myself the question: why? Or better said, I kept asking God the question: why? What greater goal is there in my writing? Is there any use in you Lord? Because if there isn’t any, I really don’t want to continue.

My prayer is that my life and my efforts will be in direct relation with Jesus, just as He lived in direct relation with His father, as it is written in John 5:19:  I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.

There is so much hunger inside of me to study the word of God and to find Wisdom and understanding. But I don’t want any of these things to be and function outside of my relation with Jesus, for what use would there be in them. I mean, the bible is full of people who did not had big trainings, bible studies and things like that, but still brought forth the kingdom of God in big proportion. Why? All because of their relation with God, who is and gives all knowledge and wisdom. They had a open and willing heart, they searched to hear and where obedient to the voice. What more is there in life than this? And, knowing that there is a long way in front of me, this is my longing, to live in this way, just as Jesus lived with His Father, not being able or willing to do anything rather than what I see or hear Him doing.

So, to bring this back to my writing. I remember myself as being someone that always had a answer, always wanted to say something back. Becoming a lover of Christ this was one of the first things Jesus helped me deal with. But still pride is always something I have to watch my back for. And I don’t want my blog to be a place where I can show the things I know. The blog started out of my longing to let flow some of the things I fill myself up with, to  speak the things that are in my mind and to share that what God is telling and teaching me. But my deepest longing is to bring the things I know and all that I gather back to Him who gives meaning to them, so that one day, on His time and for His purpose they can be used.

Keeping the blogging thing low for a while and reflecting on these thoughts, Jesus life went through my mind, and this verse came up: And Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men. Luke 2:52.

People almost always focus only on three years of the life of Jesus, forgetting or neglecting that He was thirty years out of the picture, increasing in wisdom and stature in the sight of men and that of God. I wondered how many times Jesus most have struggled in Himself with the fact that He knew and was the answer to all the pain and suffering around Him, all the sicknesses, curses and fights, but did not react because He waited on His father’s timing. I mean, what a commitment and loyalty!

Thinking about this helped me to find peace with my blog and my writing, and I pray that God will give me the grace to grow and increase in wisdom and stature until the time He wants to use me and all I have gained. So until that time I just keep on searching, reading and writing, praying that God will keep pride form my sight, so that all my longings to share and to teach may die, and one day be raised by Him to bring forth according to His grace.



Shake

But now He has promised, saying, “Yet once more I shake not only the earth, but also heaven.”²⁷ Now this, “Yet once more,” indicates the removal of those things that are being shaken, as of things that are made, that the things which cannot be shaken may remain. ²⁸ Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom which cannot be shaken, let us have grace, by which we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear. ²⁹ For our God is a consuming fire.

shake me out of spiritual dollmess

Shake of prayerlesness

Shake the mountains of resistance

Shake people free from satans hold

Shake limitations of

Shake of hinderness for God filles marriage

- Pride

- Wrong thinking

- Wrong reacting

Shake of strongholds of my mind

Shake of unbelief for healing
Shake of financial resistance
Shake the gates of hell

City Bible church - Frank Damazio